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Home Alone...

... my roommate left town today for a week and I have the apartment to myself. I have mixed emotions about having this huge bachelor pad to myself. I love being alone and yet I hate being alone. I know it sounds contradctory but that's just my complex character coming out of me. Adam (my roomie) told me to have fun and just take advantage of having the place to myself, but honestly, I really don't know what to do, hahhahahaaaa, i know it sounds retarded but this is the first time in 6 years that I am gonna have a place to myself as an eligible bachelor. A few ideas came to my mind but I'm really not feeling it. I do have one person in mind that I wanna spend the nights here with (cJ) :) and I think he knows who he is, but I'm kinda shy to ask him. I actually just spent a very good evening with him last night and I'd love for him to spend the night with me again while I have the place ot myself, so should I ask him....?? Arrgghhh, this sucks ass... hahahahahaa...

... the past few weeks has been pretty chill actually, one of my very best friend had his 30th birthday last friday and we went out and got so wasted. Although we didn't accomplish our goal to get Jeff (the birthday boy) laid, we did accomplish to show him some good ole' drunken time. We were supposed to go to Bourbon Street then to a club to dance our asses off, but we ended up going home after Bourbon Street because Jeff got so freaking wasted that we almost got kicked out of the bar not only once but twice, lol... but sure enough, we know the owner and a few of the bartenders there so they all got our backs and let us stay... SUCKAS!!! But it definitely was a blast... this week I got invited to a couple of parties and Jeff's best friend is coming to town this friday so I think it'll be another eventful weekend this week... And my good friend Stephanie invited me to be her gay-date this thursday for one of her good friend's bady party so I'm gonna hang out with the str8's thursday, and bet your ass I'm gonna gay it all up, hahahhaa...

... It is almost midnight and I gotta hit the sack, work early tomorrow... promise i'll write more often...

After thoughts...

... I had a date on Valentine's Day and it was great. Cj and I went to dinner and had some Thai Food (YUMMM...) and a bottle of red wine. I'm learning more and more about him everyday and I really like what I'm finding out. He's a good guy, very genuine and very much like me. Kinda scary to meet someone who's very much like me. It's like looking infront of the mirror. I opened up to him about my feelings and what I am going through right now and he responded in a positive way which made me happy. It really is very hard for me to open up to someone and just let everything lay out there in the open, but this year I promised myself to not be afraid anymore and just be as open to everybody and to everything as possible. Vulnerability for me is indeed very frightening and I have guarded myself in the past so I won't risk being burned. But in reality, nothing can really prevent someone from being burned, trust me I know because I have been burned before. And everytime it happens, I run away and escape someplace where no one knows me, but I am tired of running. I almost packed my stuff to move to San Francisco last February, but for some reason, I stopped myself and stayed in San Diego. I'm glad I didn't leave because I wouldn't have met Cj if I had pack-up and left!!! He told me the same thing...

... i guess things happen for a reason. I still feel lonely once in awhile, especially when I'm all alone and there's nothing to do. But I guess everyone gets that way once in awhile. I'm just really glad I have a few friends who are there to help me out and making sure I am ok. I think the hardest part is living with someone for the longest time (6 years) and then one day you wake-up and there's no one there right next to you. You're sleeping in a different room, on a different bed, with nothing but blankets and comforters to keep you warm at night... but wait, I'm supposed to be talking about Valentine's Day, hehehe... my ADD is acting up again, but anyhow, lol...

... Valentine's Day was great, it was chill, and yet I had fun. Valentine's is probably the least favorite among the holidays, and probably the least among the singles out there as well. Alot of my friends we're really wiggin' the fact that they don't have any dates nor boyfriends/girlfriends to go out with, and I just don't understand that. I'd be more worried about not having a date on New Year's Eve... lol... I am tired, have to hit the sack... and my mind is drawing blank...

Blur...

... it's sunday, and i'm at home just chillaxin' with my dogs and watching the movie "Step-Up." This weekend has been a total blur, but it's all good, I had alot of fun, especially last friday nite. It's been awhile since I've had a great time like that. I hung out with my buddies and it was great. Funny thing is, all of us (Jeff, Adam, Brad, and I) all broke-up with our relationships all at the same time. Actually it was the same week, how funny is that...?? Well, not that funny, but it just amusing to me :) This weekend, Cj also came and met up with us, and he met my friends for the first time... Just like myself, all my buddies are pretty laid-back, chill, easy-going, crazy-adventure loving guys that's why I wasn't really worried about introducing him to them. I've been hanging out alot with Cj and quite frankly, i really find him very intriguing. He's very passionate about alot of things and I love talking to him. He's very open about his feelings and with what's going on in his head. He doesn't internalize things and makes everybody around him so much comfortable. My friends all liked him, and I'm really glad for that....

Friends nowadays seem to be so hard to find, well, true friends that is. Especially gay friends. They initially tell you, yah I'm looking for friends as well, and then later on, they come on to you wanting more than friendship. I mean, I am not opposed to that, I know feelings tend to grow and get stronger, but with me, I rarely see my friends as "dating prospects." Alot of people would disagree with me, but sometimes, i know so much about my friends that it kinda scares me to have more than just friendship with them, yah know what I mean? or maybe I'm just over-thinking it... hmmm....

Decisions... Decisions...

... ok I lied on my last post! 2007 is starting off roughly for me... I have this huge and life changing decision that I need to figure out SOON! It's been tearing me apart and I need to figure out what I have to do before it gets any more complicated... I know this is a bit vague, but I will spill more about it after it's been done... It just sucks because I really need to talk to someone about things but I don't know who to turn to... I have alot of friends who care, but I know I have to be the one to decide on this, and whatever happens I don't wanna regret anything. Alot is at stake and I can lose everything but if this goes through in a positive way, HAPPINESS is what awaits!!!

...Aarggghhhh, this sucks so bad, but I gotta do what I gotta do!!!

this is weird, but January is halfway through and I can't believe February is just around the corner. If you guys didn't know, I got injured last August '06, and haven't been working since. I've been at home most of the time reccuperating, and quite frankly, I am bored out of my mind doing nothing and waiting to get back to work... I am better now though, and just been waiting for my doctor to clear me out of my injury so I can get back to workin'... I'm kinda worried because I don't know if I've forgotten how to do my job, hah hah, but really, I just wanna go back to work... thus far, all I do at home is wake-up, watch DVD's, play video games, play with my dogs, and go do my cardio at the gym, yah exciting huh!!! Can you guys tell, there's not much excitement going on in my life right now? Yah, an injury does that to you, lol... but oh well, I'm still keeping a positive attitude, trying to keep myself busy... The good thing about having all these time in my hands is that I get to do alot of thinking, contemplating about things... I also got to explore more of the music that I love and got back to singing again. It's been awhile since I heard myself sing, and I've forgotten how much fun it is... I also got to travel a bit and made some fantastic friends... So far, I think 2007 is off to a great start...

Shaved Head...

Ok, it's a New Year and of course, just like what JP (my stylist) say, the "always evolving look" of Burnz has changed from a faux-hawk to my favorite shaved head... this photo was taken by one of the Best Photographers in LA, Tim Ricks, I think I'm gonna keep this shaved head for long! Low-maintenance, no shampoo needed, wake-up the next day and brush my teeth look, hehehee... yah my laziness coming back again!

Hope everyone started their new year with a blast... mine was pretty mellow but so far so good...

ciao~