B U R N Z Z E E

My Celebrity Look-alikes

2007-03-22T00:47:00.001-07:00

My cool celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com. Get one for yourself.

Home Alone...

2007-03-13T23:20:00.000-07:00

... my roommate left town today for a week and I have the apartment to myself. I have mixed emotions about having this huge bachelor pad to myself. I love being alone and yet I hate being alone. I know it sounds contradctory but that's just my complex character coming out of me. Adam (my roomie) told me to have fun and just take advantage of having the place to myself, but honestly, I really don't know what to do, hahhahahaaaa, i know it sounds retarded but this is the first time in 6 years that I am gonna have a place to myself as an eligible bachelor. A few ideas came to my mind but I'm really not feeling it. I do have one person in mind that I wanna spend the nights here with (cJ) :) and I think he knows who he is, but I'm kinda shy to ask him. I actually just spent a very good evening with him last night and I'd love for him to spend the night with me again while I have the place ot myself, so should I ask him....?? Arrgghhh, this sucks ass... hahahahahaa...

... the past few weeks has been pretty chill actually, one of my very best friend had his 30th birthday last friday and we went out and got so wasted. Although we didn't accomplish our goal to get Jeff (the birthday boy) laid, we did accomplish to show him some good ole' drunken time. We were supposed to go to Bourbon Street then to a club to dance our asses off, but we ended up going home after Bourbon Street because Jeff got so freaking wasted that we almost got kicked out of the bar not only once but twice, lol... but sure enough, we know the owner and a few of the bartenders there so they all got our backs and let us stay... SUCKAS!!! But it definitely was a blast... this week I got invited to a couple of parties and Jeff's best friend is coming to town this friday so I think it'll be another eventful weekend this week... And my good friend Stephanie invited me to be her gay-date this thursday for one of her good friend's bady party so I'm gonna hang out with the str8's thursday, and bet your ass I'm gonna gay it all up, hahahhaa...

... It is almost midnight and I gotta hit the sack, work early tomorrow... promise i'll write more often...

After thoughts...

2007-02-18T10:40:00.001-08:00

... I had a date on Valentine's Day and it was great. Cj and I went to dinner and had some Thai Food (YUMMM...) and a bottle of red wine. I'm learning more and more about him everyday and I really like what I'm finding out. He's a good guy, very genuine and very much like me. Kinda scary to meet someone who's very much like me. It's like looking infront of the mirror. I opened up to him about my feelings and what I am going through right now and he responded in a positive way which made me happy. It really is very hard for me to open up to someone and just let everything lay out there in the open, but this year I promised myself to not be afraid anymore and just be as open to everybody and to everything as possible. Vulnerability for me is indeed very frightening and I have guarded myself in the past so I won't risk being burned. But in reality, nothing can really prevent someone from being burned, trust me I know because I have been burned before. And everytime it happens, I run away and escape someplace where no one knows me, but I am tired of running. I almost packed my stuff to move to San Francisco last February, but for some reason, I stopped myself and stayed in San Diego. I'm glad I didn't leave because I wouldn't have met Cj if I had pack-up and left!!! He told me the same thing...

... i guess things happen for a reason. I still feel lonely once in awhile, especially when I'm all alone and there's nothing to do. But I guess everyone gets that way once in awhile. I'm just really glad I have a few friends who are there to help me out and making sure I am ok. I think the hardest part is living with someone for the longest time (6 years) and then one day you wake-up and there's no one there right next to you. You're sleeping in a different room, on a different bed, with nothing but blankets and comforters to keep you warm at night... but wait, I'm supposed to be talking about Valentine's Day, hehehe... my ADD is acting up again, but anyhow, lol...

... Valentine's Day was great, it was chill, and yet I had fun. Valentine's is probably the least favorite among the holidays, and probably the least among the singles out there as well. Alot of my friends we're really wiggin' the fact that they don't have any dates nor boyfriends/girlfriends to go out with, and I just don't understand that. I'd be more worried about not having a date on New Year's Eve... lol... I am tired, have to hit the sack... and my mind is drawing blank...

Blur...

2007-01-28T16:09:00.000-08:00

... it's sunday, and i'm at home just chillaxin' with my dogs and watching the movie "Step-Up." This weekend has been a total blur, but it's all good, I had alot of fun, especially last friday nite. It's been awhile since I've had a great time like that. I hung out with my buddies and it was great. Funny thing is, all of us (Jeff, Adam, Brad, and I) all broke-up with our relationships all at the same time. Actually it was the same week, how funny is that...?? Well, not that funny, but it just amusing to me :) This weekend, Cj also came and met up with us, and he met my friends for the first time... Just like myself, all my buddies are pretty laid-back, chill, easy-going, crazy-adventure loving guys that's why I wasn't really worried about introducing him to them. I've been hanging out alot with Cj and quite frankly, i really find him very intriguing. He's very passionate about alot of things and I love talking to him. He's very open about his feelings and with what's going on in his head. He doesn't internalize things and makes everybody around him so much comfortable. My friends all liked him, and I'm really glad for that....

Friends nowadays seem to be so hard to find, well, true friends that is. Especially gay friends. They initially tell you, yah I'm looking for friends as well, and then later on, they come on to you wanting more than friendship. I mean, I am not opposed to that, I know feelings tend to grow and get stronger, but with me, I rarely see my friends as "dating prospects." Alot of people would disagree with me, but sometimes, i know so much about my friends that it kinda scares me to have more than just friendship with them, yah know what I mean? or maybe I'm just over-thinking it... hmmm....

Decisions... Decisions...

2007-01-12T22:14:00.000-08:00

... ok I lied on my last post! 2007 is starting off roughly for me... I have this huge and life changing decision that I need to figure out SOON! It's been tearing me apart and I need to figure out what I have to do before it gets any more complicated... I know this is a bit vague, but I will spill more about it after it's been done... It just sucks because I really need to talk to someone about things but I don't know who to turn to... I have alot of friends who care, but I know I have to be the one to decide on this, and whatever happens I don't wanna regret anything. Alot is at stake and I can lose everything but if this goes through in a positive way, HAPPINESS is what awaits!!!

...Aarggghhhh, this sucks so bad, but I gotta do what I gotta do!!!

2007-01-11T01:25:00.000-08:00

this is weird, but January is halfway through and I can't believe February is just around the corner. If you guys didn't know, I got injured last August '06, and haven't been working since. I've been at home most of the time reccuperating, and quite frankly, I am bored out of my mind doing nothing and waiting to get back to work... I am better now though, and just been waiting for my doctor to clear me out of my injury so I can get back to workin'... I'm kinda worried because I don't know if I've forgotten how to do my job, hah hah, but really, I just wanna go back to work... thus far, all I do at home is wake-up, watch DVD's, play video games, play with my dogs, and go do my cardio at the gym, yah exciting huh!!! Can you guys tell, there's not much excitement going on in my life right now? Yah, an injury does that to you, lol... but oh well, I'm still keeping a positive attitude, trying to keep myself busy... The good thing about having all these time in my hands is that I get to do alot of thinking, contemplating about things... I also got to explore more of the music that I love and got back to singing again. It's been awhile since I heard myself sing, and I've forgotten how much fun it is... I also got to travel a bit and made some fantastic friends... So far, I think 2007 is off to a great start...

Shaved Head...

2007-01-02T18:02:00.000-08:00

Ok, it's a New Year and of course, just like what JP (my stylist) say, the "always evolving look" of Burnz has changed from a faux-hawk to my favorite shaved head... this photo was taken by one of the Best Photographers in LA, Tim Ricks, I think I'm gonna keep this shaved head for long! Low-maintenance, no shampoo needed, wake-up the next day and brush my teeth look, hehehee... yah my laziness coming back again!

Hope everyone started their new year with a blast... mine was pretty mellow but so far so good...

ciao~

Underwear Fashion Show...

2006-12-31T04:30:00.000-08:00

The AsianMenREDefined Models during the Winter Underwear Fashion Show, held at the ROE Club in San Francisco. Top row from left: HAO, HERMAN, BK, VU, ANDREW. Bottom Row fromm Left: DON, BURNZ, DREW, JAE & ANDREW...

... cocktails during the pre-show! From Left: HERMAN, JAE, BURNZ, & DREW... Jae is the ONLY straight guy among the pack, but still he's down to partying it up like a gay-boy, yeah... :)

... The MODELS along with the Crew and the Photographer DannyDan (Yellow Shirt/Bottom Left w/ his hubby and underwear designer HIRO). If ever you guys are in SF next month, january 21st, 2007 (WOW is it really 2007 already?) do come and join us for a fun-filled T-Dance at the ROE Club...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE...

Christmas Time...

2006-12-26T00:33:00.000-08:00

First off, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! This is one time of the year where my family really gets together and act as a family! I look forward to this day every year because I barely see my niece and my nephew and every Christmas, I get to see them open presents, with lots of joy on their faces. I must admit, I
I've always wondered how it feels like to have my own kids, but for now, I think my niece and my nephew are who I consider "My Babies" until I have my own, when that will be is still uncertain.
... besides that, I really am not a big fan of the holiday season. I dunno why, but there's this certain feeling I get same time every year. And it isn't good... I know for fact that my whole family's not gonna be here forever and I always ask myself "what happens then?" It is somewhat depressing, but it is a reality I have to face and hopefully when that time comes, I will be ready and there's atleast someone in my life who will keep me safe and happy...

... after the pageant, i have been keeping myself busy with alot of things... been very lucky to still get modelling gigs, and have photographers still interested in booking me for various projects... so eventhough I didn't win, I think the pageant was a very good exposure to show my face out there and that was actually what I had in mind initially and I'm very thankful that it turned out that way...

anyhow, next up is New Year's Party, which I don't think I'll be a part of this year because I might be on-duty at the hospital, but crossing my fingers that I'm not gonna have to work that day... noetheless, I wish everybody the best for 2007 and hope that 2006 has been good to you guys as it did to me... Be well, stay safe, and all the blessings to each of you my friends, family and loved ones...

Mr.Philippines-USA 2007 After Thoughts...

2006-11-29T18:59:00.000-08:00

... Ok, I am back in SD after a very hectic but fun-filled weekend. I arrived in San Francisco thursday evening at around 1015 PM, on Thanksgiving. My Thanksgiving dinner actually consisted of honey-roasted peanuts and a can of Diet Coke. I know, it was pretty bad, but that's all they were serving on the plane so it's all good. Oh, the stewardess gave us a bar of this awesome tasting gourmet chocolate, and that was yummy! I arrived in SF, confident that I'd do well. I've been working hard for the past few weeks and although I haven't really met the rest of the candidates, but there's no doubt in my mind that I'd do well. Friday, I had a photoshoot with Walter Parada. Around noon, I came back to the hotel to rehearse for the Preliminaries. It was very intimate. They've converted the ballroom into a small runway with the judges sitting on each side it. We started off with the preliminary interview with the 10 judges asking questions. Each of us were asked about 2-4 questions. I got 2. First question: WHY DID I JOIN MR.PHILIPPINES? and I answered, that there are alot of sterotyping not just towards Filipino Men, but to Filipinos in general, and I joined because I wanted to show that Filipinos are not "just domestic helpers" or "maids". There's more to us than that, and I wanted to show how beautiful, talented and hard-working Filipinos are, that's why I joined. Second question: HOW MUCH BEARING DOES A TALENT HAVE IN THIS TYPE OF COMPETITION AND WHY? I answered that I was a little bummed knowing that there isn't any talent segment this year. There are so many talented Filipino singers, dancers, performers, models, etc. out there and to me i think talent should weigh more than how it is now in this competition so that we can showcase some of the things we Filipinos can do. After all having a talent is a blessing in itself.
After the second question, my time was up, and the executive producers thanked me and signaled me to go and get ready for the next event, which was the "Barong Tagalog" Competition. "Barong" is a traditional attire worn in the Philippines which is equivalent to the formal suit and tie here in the US. I wore a pink Barong with lime-green embelishments and a flat-front black slacks. The preliminary runway show started and as we walked down the runway, at the end, we introduced ourselves and the state/city we came from. Next up was the BENCH Underwear Competition. and the last part was the Tuxedo Competition.
The next day, Saturday (November 25th), we headed to the Palace of Fine Arts at 9 AM to rehearse for that evenings show. The auditorium was huge and a sudden rush of nervousness and excitement came rushing down my spine and I suddenly realized that going through that day, the producers already knew who the Top Ten were. I thought to myself, well I have done my best during the preliminaries, and today, I am just going to have alot of fun and not expect anything but still hope for the best. 7 PM came and the show started. It was pretty smooth over-all, and there were a few surprises but indeed it was fun. The time came for the emcee to call the TOP TEN FINALISTS and I got a little nervous again. Finalist number 1 was called, then 2... then 3.... then 4.... then 5... half way through, and I was getting more and more nervous... then 6th was called and 7th, and still my number has not been called ( I am candidate #7)... then what relief when the 8th finalist was none other than ME!!! Wooohoooo, I almost jumped for joy but retained my composure. All the Top Ten was called and each of us were handed an envelope containing our final question. My question: WHAT DOES A GINOONG PILIPINAS (MR.PHILIPPINES) EMBODY? My answer: "A ginoo is strong and tough, yet he is sensitive. He is smart, intelligent and witty, yet he's modest and down-to-earth. We cannot discount the fact that he's beautiful, handsome, etc. But most importantly, a ginoo knows his heritage, his culture and the Filipino People. Having all these qualities will definitely make someone a very very good representative of the Filipino People. Thank You!" It's all done and everything is in the hands of the judges. And I thought, even if I don't win, what's important is that I had fun. And the moment of truth came and I didn't place. Which was cool! but i was curious what my ranking was.
The next day, Elton, one of the executive producers came to my hotel to pick me and Dave Tiu (one of the judges and my new manager) and Elton told me that during the preliminaries, I was ranked #2, and everybody was expecting me to win or atleast 1st runner-up. Come pageant finals, I went down to rank #6, which was not too bad. I knew I did good and tried my best and I think that's what's important. If you ask me, would I do it again? DEFINITELY!!! The producers actually asked me to join again, and I'm considering it... anyhow, here's a backstage picture of Ingel, Mark, Dru and I (from left to right). I'll try to post more pics soon...
Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving...

Happy Mass Turkey Murder Day...

2006-11-23T19:00:00.000-08:00

... hah hah, I can't help but crack up just by reading the title of this particular blog :) I know it sounds bad but it sounds funny though... anyhow, I just wanted to wish everyone a HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! Today I am feeling really good. A few of my friends sent me text messages and a few of them called just to wish me goodluck for this weekend! It really feels good to know that though some of them aren't gonna be there, I know I'll have their support with me when I do my best Naomi Campbell walk onstage, hehehee...
I am at the airport right now in San Diego, and there's no one here but a few passengers trying to make the last minute trip to where ever their going. Funny, because the pizza guy's been staring at me for the last 10 minutes, lol, I'm guessing he's gay because he's been checking me out since I got here, which is kinda nice... :) Uh-oh my boy's not gonna like that though, lol... hehehhee.... My flight is not 'til 8:30 so I have an hour and a half to kill and just been listening to Frankie J, Mario Vazquez, and J.T.'s albums and I totally recommend yu guys getting them...
speaking of songs, I came across JoJo's new song, "How To Touch A Girl", and I'm a little bugged by the title. The song is pretty cool, and her voice is amazingly more mature now, but the title? Well, first, she's only 15 and I doubt she really knows how a "girl should be touched" yah know what I mean! Second, well, the title can be viewed in various ways, and I know the pervs out there would automatically assume that JoJo would like to be "touched" that way, yah dig? lol... anyhow, the song is great though, love the lyrics and she's actually NOT talking about anything sexual, not that there's anything wrong with that, but like I said she's only 15, hehehhe, so yah, can you tell I'm bugged by it alot, lol... anyhow, here's a little Thanksgiving gift for yu guys... one of my favorites of all time. MARK WAHLBERG!!! I dunno if this was shot pre- or post-Marky Mark era... nonetheless, he's a hottie...
:)

Holding On...

2006-11-22T20:26:00.000-08:00

... just finish dinner with my boy, and as I sit here trying not to think much about this weekend, I suddenly realize that tomorrow is the first time that I am not gonna be spending Thanksgiving with my family. It made me sad a bit because it's the first time I felt how it is to be alone. I have always had my family with me during the Holidays, and this year I am actually going to miss my sister's birthday as well. We don't do anything extravagant or anything grandeur but the fact that we're always celebrating together made me realize that I should start getting used to not being able to be there with them, nor them being always there with me. The good thing is that I always have all those great memories we've shared and I am definitely holding on to those for as long as I can. Tomorrow night is my flight to San Francisco, and I'm excited and nervous at the same time. But I know it will definitely be a blast and I am not going to expect anything because I despise disappointments. I always go in with a clear mind so that when things doesn't go my way, it doesn't weigh me down as much... I am hella tired though, and I made dinner for my boy because he's been working alot of hours and I just wanted him to know that he's appreciated. I am going to be gone for about 4 days and it'll be very very hectic but I'll try to keep you guys updated about what's going on in SF... wish me luck and if you guys are in or around the Bay Area, please do come check this out, and see me: www.ginoousa.org

here's a very recent picture of me, taken by one of my favorite photographer Cameron Frost in Los Angeles... HAPPY TURKEY DAY Y'ALL!!!

Hot Stuff...

2006-11-19T23:57:00.000-08:00

Channing Tatum... this guy exemplifies the male X-Factor. He's gorgeous, tough, rough, and the boy can dance! Yeah, have you guys seen "Step Up"... What do you think guys...? :)

Moving Day...

2006-11-19T17:53:00.000-08:00

Today is a chill day for me!!! I moved last Friday and crap, I've been hella tired since then. Cranky too. To top it off, I've spent hella money on new furniture and new things for the place, but nonetheless, I am happy, just tired and whiny I guess... My friend Dru called me earlier to give me the run-down of the guys copeteing against me this coming weekend. And he told me that out of the 9 guys that showed up, only 2 are, using his own words, "DOABLE", hehehhee... that's Dru! but really, I'm not wiggin' it, though it was good to hear, I'm going there to have fun, and see what it's like... plus, I get to go to San Francisco again, so that ain't bad at all... Anyhow, it's really difficult moving to a new place, especially if you don't have anything at all: empty kitchen, living room, no cable (yet!), and nothing on the fridge (yet!). I've been living with my other roommates for like 5 years and pretty much everything in that house was theirs except for the stuff in my room (bed, tv, lapto, clothes, etc). Yesterday, I went shopping for living room furniture, and thank goodness, I have a friend who manages a really nice furniture warehouse here in San Diego, and I pretty much got my living room stuff for wholesale price :) so that, I'm really glad... my neighbors seem really nice and quiet which is a good thing. I'm probably the only one making all the noise in here and my dogs (PIGGY and GIZMO-they're both PUGS)

anyhow, i will leave you with a collage of my fave models, courtesy of my friend ALEXSANDER who's in Vegas right now, winning alot of money hopefully, lol...

A Big Day...

2006-11-16T11:23:00.000-08:00

I just woke up and it's almost noon here in San Diego. Turned the tele on and saw that Tyra is on. I love her, and although some people don't, I think she's interesting. And she was talking about METH addiction, and it dawned on me: I KNOW SOMEONE WHO'S GETTING ADDICTED TO METH!!! I didn't even realize it, but when she started talking about symptons, indications, and what not, I knew this guy is using. He started complaining about "creepy-crawling insects" on his arms and legs. One time he called my boy and he said he's got some "maggots" coming out of his skin and he started picking his skin. All of which are hallucinations, another indication of METH abuse. Anyhow, enough of these depressing stories, it just dawned on me and i thought I'd share it with you guys...
Today is a late start for me, with the big move starting tomorrow. But I'm excited because the area I am moving into is so nice and I got a small place but it's just perfect. I was supposed to go to San Fran this weekend, but I don't think I'm gonna make it there until nexgt weekend, because of this move. And as November 25th comes closer (yah, Pageant nite - what's another word for PAGEANT btw, lol) I'm wiggin' it more and more, but oh well, as what my friend Ingel told me last night, just be cool, show mah face and have fun... and Jamie told me to "imagine everybody "nekkid" heh heh" so that's what i'm gonna do... i'm nervous because there's a swimsuit competition, i dunno if i look great in a swimsuit, here's a sample, yu guys let me know, heh heh ~ ciao...

Mr.Philippines-USA 2007

2006-11-15T20:16:00.000-08:00

Ok, here it is... this year's "Search for America's Best Filipino Male" will be taking place on Saturday, November 25th, 2006 at the Palace Of Fine Arts in San Francisco, CA.

and this year, San Diego's representative is none other than, ME :)
for more info, please visit: www.ginoousa.org
and if you guys are free that weekend, please do come and see the pageant!

... thanks to my good friend ALEXSANDER for his support (www.alexsandercr.blogspot.com)

Gym....

2006-11-15T19:21:00.000-08:00

... so today, I went to the gym at around noon, figured what the hell, I'd go early so I can take my sweet-ass time and not have to wait for machines, equipment, etc... and it was cool, not too crowded and a few hotties working out, so i'm a little more motivated, wink wink... and then as I was doing my abs, a short guy walked in and i thought, this guy looked familiar! He was very private, wearing a long gray hoodie, and black gym shorts. As he walked passed me, and I got to see his face, I swear that I have seen this guy before somewhere! My curiosity had gone skyrocketed, and I was focusing on this guy for a few minutes when the song "THAT GIRL" played on my ipOd. As I grabbed my ipOd to turn up the volume, I saw the graphics and sure enough, the same guy running on the threadmill is none other than FRANKIE J...!!! I was a little starstruck and was staring at him for a few minutes and i must admit he's way cuter in person :) and he actually caught me staring a few times, hehhehee.... i was gonna come and say hi, and shake his hand but I didn't wanna bug him... I was just glad to know that we go to the same gym :)
I'm a big fan and his latest album is awesome...

A New Blog....

2006-11-13T23:12:00.000-08:00

This year's almost over, so I thought I'd start another BLOG and try to keep this one up a little longer than my previous blogs. A good friend of mine inspired me to start BLOGGING again, and here I am :) It's funny because I almost forgot how fun this is, and now that I am starting again, everything's starting to come back to me. I clearly remember though, how I lost interest in blogging. One time when everything seems to be doing ok, I got a message from some guy who's a bit "homophobic" and it made me realize how shallow and unpretty the world out there can be. It ruined my "perfect" notion of the world and lost interest in blogging after that. I know that I shouldn't let anyone or anything like that bother me, but I was thankful that I got to experience that, because it made me stronger and more aware of the world. Anyhow, I am back and there ain't no stopping me from now on... so whether you like it or not, HERE I COME.... :)