Blur...

... it's sunday, and i'm at home just chillaxin' with my dogs and watching the movie "Step-Up." This weekend has been a total blur, but it's all good, I had alot of fun, especially last friday nite. It's been awhile since I've had a great time like that. I hung out with my buddies and it was great. Funny thing is, all of us (Jeff, Adam, Brad, and I) all broke-up with our relationships all at the same time. Actually it was the same week, how funny is that...?? Well, not that funny, but it just amusing to me :) This weekend, Cj also came and met up with us, and he met my friends for the first time... Just like myself, all my buddies are pretty laid-back, chill, easy-going, crazy-adventure loving guys that's why I wasn't really worried about introducing him to them. I've been hanging out alot with Cj and quite frankly, i really find him very intriguing. He's very passionate about alot of things and I love talking to him. He's very open about his feelings and with what's going on in his head. He doesn't internalize things and makes everybody around him so much comfortable. My friends all liked him, and I'm really glad for that....

Friends nowadays seem to be so hard to find, well, true friends that is. Especially gay friends. They initially tell you, yah I'm looking for friends as well, and then later on, they come on to you wanting more than friendship. I mean, I am not opposed to that, I know feelings tend to grow and get stronger, but with me, I rarely see my friends as "dating prospects." Alot of people would disagree with me, but sometimes, i know so much about my friends that it kinda scares me to have more than just friendship with them, yah know what I mean? or maybe I'm just over-thinking it... hmmm....

Decisions... Decisions...

... ok I lied on my last post! 2007 is starting off roughly for me... I have this huge and life changing decision that I need to figure out SOON! It's been tearing me apart and I need to figure out what I have to do before it gets any more complicated... I know this is a bit vague, but I will spill more about it after it's been done... It just sucks because I really need to talk to someone about things but I don't know who to turn to... I have alot of friends who care, but I know I have to be the one to decide on this, and whatever happens I don't wanna regret anything. Alot is at stake and I can lose everything but if this goes through in a positive way, HAPPINESS is what awaits!!!

...Aarggghhhh, this sucks so bad, but I gotta do what I gotta do!!!

this is weird, but January is halfway through and I can't believe February is just around the corner. If you guys didn't know, I got injured last August '06, and haven't been working since. I've been at home most of the time reccuperating, and quite frankly, I am bored out of my mind doing nothing and waiting to get back to work... I am better now though, and just been waiting for my doctor to clear me out of my injury so I can get back to workin'... I'm kinda worried because I don't know if I've forgotten how to do my job, hah hah, but really, I just wanna go back to work... thus far, all I do at home is wake-up, watch DVD's, play video games, play with my dogs, and go do my cardio at the gym, yah exciting huh!!! Can you guys tell, there's not much excitement going on in my life right now? Yah, an injury does that to you, lol... but oh well, I'm still keeping a positive attitude, trying to keep myself busy... The good thing about having all these time in my hands is that I get to do alot of thinking, contemplating about things... I also got to explore more of the music that I love and got back to singing again. It's been awhile since I heard myself sing, and I've forgotten how much fun it is... I also got to travel a bit and made some fantastic friends... So far, I think 2007 is off to a great start...

Shaved Head...

Ok, it's a New Year and of course, just like what JP (my stylist) say, the "always evolving look" of Burnz has changed from a faux-hawk to my favorite shaved head... this photo was taken by one of the Best Photographers in LA, Tim Ricks, I think I'm gonna keep this shaved head for long! Low-maintenance, no shampoo needed, wake-up the next day and brush my teeth look, hehehee... yah my laziness coming back again!

Hope everyone started their new year with a blast... mine was pretty mellow but so far so good...

ciao~